a song of my own



I've spent my morning singing along to my power anthems on spotify. (Hallelujah covered by K D Lang, oh my goodness. What a song, and what a voice to sing it! Mmmmm...)

I was gathering my courage because I am ready to share a song with you. A song I wrote.

The entire  song came to me, completely out of the blue, melody included, the night before last. A gift. I wrote the words down that night and picked the melody out on the piano this morning. It's pretty simple, like a cross between a folk song and a hymn. I've had it stuck in my head (in a really good way) since it came to me.

I'm still figuring out the chords. (Music theory: I took it in high school, people. HIGH SCHOOL. And not late High School. The summer between my Sophomore and Junior year. That was the summer of 1990!)

Anyway, after I get the chords figured out, I'll be able to play it on my autoharp.

I am hoping that by writing about this - which is a big enough thing in and of itself ("Hey look at me, I wrote a song!!!" "Yeah, they'll all gonna think it sucks," says my inner critic, who loves me and wants to protect me from being hurt. Pushing through that fear takes courage. I am definitely going to have a vulnerability hangover after I hit publish), I'll be able to find the courage to actually record myself singing it to you.

But I have a lot more fear about my performance abilities as a solo singer than I do about my skills as a writer. After all, I've been sharing my writing publically for a very long time. Whereas I have really only sung solo in a performance setting a few times. All of which were very long ago. I am out of practice as a soloist. But to get back into practice requires doing it. Which I can do. I know I can. But let me deal with one vulnerability hangover at a time.

So just in case I never get around to before I'm ready to share a video or voice file of me singing this song, here is a link to the first line's melody (more coming as I figure out how to use noteflight's software).

And here are the lyrics, which are oh-so-apropo:


I am enough
You are enough
This world is big enough
To let us be enough

There's fear
   (I am enough)
There's hate
    (You are enough)
But over all of these is love
So let this be enough.

There's pain
      (I am enough)
There's grief
       (You are enough)
But love is always stronger
So let this be enough.

I am enough
You are enough
This world is big enough

To let us be enough.