|My students (first/ final troupe performance Spring 2005). Photo curtesy of Jen B.|
I just realized last night - it's been six and a half years since I last taught a bellydance classes.
|From my first ever performance (with Qismah) fall 2001. Photo curtesy of Ginette N.|
I did teach one mini demo class when Remy was about 2 -- it was after mommy and me yoga. Very brief. It was at most 20 minutes. Still, that's almost four years ago!
And weirder, it's been almost two years since I've performed.
|Just before my last performance, Feb '10.|
And now that we've moved again (and I could conceivably start teaching) I don't know if I want to. Teaching has drama drawbacks I don't know if I'm prepared for (again).
And I feel so out of practice that I don't want to jump back to performing, either (not with something big). And I don't know anyone here, not really. I haven't found my peeps. Is this an east coast west coast thing or I wow, I'm actually quite shy sometimes thing. (Or both. Probably both. Mostly the strange shyness.)
|Tribal Cafe, summer 2004 (photo via Gilded Serpent)|
I'm sure Tribal would have exploded without me (thanks to Rachel Brice), but I'm glad I got to play a minor role in the beginnings.
|Northern Oasis (2005? 2004?): just dancing at my friend's house.|
Perhaps I am too hard on myself. It takes time to get acquainted with things.
And perhaps I have just moved on, I don't know.
I have dancing almost my entire life (my first workshop was at the age of 7 or 8). I have a unique perspective on the evolution of the (tribal) bellydance community. And yet, I feel like a poseur: I don't dance enough. I don't teach. I don't have the latest, greatest costuming or music. I am out of touch.
Screw it. Just dance.
That I can do.
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