ebb and flow (always)

Looking at the blank page again, after taking some more days off.

Starts and stops. More starts than stops. Knowing I can keep going even when it is hard.

The beauty of a purple rose from our rainy day walk in the park last week.

Ebb and flow.

Friday night, Remy and I started playing wii fit u and it is so good to be getting those post-exercise endorphins again. I'd forgotten how euphoric movement makes me, after, even when it is hard to start.

Like when my menstrual cycle started and I lost all motivation to do anything other than curl up on the couch, but after I'd gotten my sweat on, I felt better.

Ebb and flow.

I want another table in my office.

I want to go somewhere warm for our winter break.

I want to adopt a dog but not have to walk it in the snow.

Ebb and flow.

It's time to get to draft two of my book.

I can't believe it's the middle of October already.

I'm ready for soccer to be over.

Ebb and flow.

The sky is really beautiful today.

I have a beautiful, messy life.

I'm gonna be 41 in less than two months and then I'm that much closer to 42.

Ebb and flow.

(That's the real secret to life, the universe and everything. Always.)