nurturing myself with essential oils

Last night, I finally realized that my anxiety has been peaking in the wee hours of the morning, keeping me from sleeping.

I've had insomnia as long as I can remember, but it isn't always accompanied by anxiety. Right now, it is. Winter is hard for me. I'm finding ways to nurture myself through this season.

I also realized: I have the right tools to help calm myself down, I just need to use them.

(Middle of the night epiphanies always seem obvious in the light of day.)

So I went downstairs to my essential oil cabinet (yes, I have been collecting essential oils for over twenty years now, so I have collected enough to fill an entire medicine cabinet) and made myself a quick calming blend.

I put one drop of a few different essential oils, neat, on my hand, and then smeared them on my chest and pillowcase.

And it helped! I didn't wake up twenty million times last night and I felt much more refreshed, this morning, thank goodness.

Anxiety is hard. Mine is pretty mild, but it still sucks. I don't want it to spiral out of control, so catching it now, and nurturing myself before that happens is an important practice of my winter self care.

This afternoon, I decided to mix up a blend for myself, duplicating (sort of) what worked last night.

I create my essential oil blends by feel, so this morning I used ylang ylang instead of lavender and I added orange and patchouli.

I filed my 10 ml roller ball bottle about a quarter way with apricot oil (a carrier oil - you could also use sweet almond, jojoba, fractionated coconut or even olive oil), then added essential oils til the blend seemed right. Then I topped it with more apricot oil. I'd estimate the bottle is more than half apricot oil, but I didn't really measure it.

I added about twenty drops each of balsam fir and cypress, about sixteen drops of juniper berry, between ten and twelve drops of orange oil, and about six drops each of rose, ylang ylang and patchouli.

(This is a more floral version of my forest bathing spray blend.)

Right now, I'm waiting for the excess essential oil (from the sides of the bottle where I spilled) to evaporate from my hands and wrists and then I'll evaluate whether I want to add anything else to the blend.

Because that's how I roll (essential oils) pun deliciously intended.