autumnal reminders

remembering autumn begins winter begins spring begins summer 
reminding myself that the blur holds my attention and with reason 
remembering that it's OK to not know, to hold space for what may come 
reminding myself that in the waiting, I am here, always, in this now 

(and this current now is kind of blowing my mind with awesomeness)
(and at the same time, is hard as hell, because the weltschmertz hurts)

so I am:

remembering autumn can be the hardest time 
reminding myself to pay attention to what I love 
remembering that it's OK not to have every answer 
and reminding myself that I am right here, now