while southern california burns

it was so intense, emotionally, when the Sonoma/Napa fires were raging. 

that's where my mom's family is from. where I lived as a little girl. where my mom was born and is still living. where most of her family still lives. at least one of my cousins had to evacuate. at least one of my high school classmates lost her house. I grew up in that area. it still feels like home. to watch it burn was scary in the most visceral way. 

and now southern california, a part which was never home (though we lived only a commute away). 

but it still feels raw. this land, this people. this is part of me. this pain. this grief. this is part of me. 

this world is my home.